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When Am I…?

I look outside this layer of glass,

And find what I can see.

I regard waves of light in their infinite mass,

And in them I see me


Me? I ask. Who is this person?

He is a creature like the rest; he consumes space and time.

How is his condition? Is it bad, will it worsen?

I think now and again; he must hear familiar bells chime.


If I can hear such bells, then I know I have air.

It makes its way to my cerebrum, creating emotion.

I then amass memories, which I may share.

Because when I need to sustain myself, a conversation is the best potion.


He has reached a new level in life, his game.

His goal is not to win, but to enjoy learning why and how.

Both he and I occupy vastly different space, yet remain the same.

Our perception of the important exists in the now.


Regardless of the future

In spite of the past

Mistakes are something I can suture

Hardships are something I can outlast


Written By: BeNjamyn Upshaw-Ruffner



About The Author
BeNjamyn Upshaw-Ruffner Former Editor-in-Chief “I’ll never know everything about anything, but I’d like to know something about everything.” - BeN/Isaac BeN is the former Editor in Chief of The Insider, now an alumni contrbutor. An embodiment of the duality between Rational and Emotional thought, this universe’s version of BeN is presumed to be a human living on PNF-404 prior to the planet’s sixth mass extinction. In the currently observed timeline, he is born in a Quebec, Canada during the information age. He is very skilled at utilizing the English language, alongside philosophical ideas, as a means to an end. However, he doesn’t seem to have any tangible goal. Everything he seeks is very abstract. He often implies that the entirety of everything is itself a work of art being consumed in some unfathomable way. I am Isaac Dinotno, the name he has given to the voice in his mind. He and I are in perpetual communication. BeN claims to have experienced astral projection during peak emotional periods of his life, though I can’t verify this. If you are reading this now, you can find BeN at Concordia University.

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