What I Need (The Days Pass)
1.What I need
Never knew
It would be so complicated
My feelings
For me
Myself
And I
The time
I spent
On my bed
In my head
Never knew
It was the reason why
It got out
I went out
Of control
Mind connected to body
Suddenly it’s a hobby
To stay in bed
In my head
Spin out of control
And drown in the covers
The stomach rolls
Empty
I crawl out
Go back
To the place
Where the people are
Where they can see
And I show them
What they need
It’s easy
Until there’s a moment
Only one
When it’s not
Then comes the shock
I give to them
And to me
Make myself
Go back
To the hobby
That’s suddenly become
A necessity
To never feel
Reality
2.The days pass
If I say
I’m crazy
I’m gone
Would you believe me?
If I say
I was wrong
What I’ve done
Would you understand me?
Because now
The people I know
Jump out windows
For fun
They laugh
And cry
And die
Piece
By piece
They don’t know why
Their pain is so funny
Understandably
A normality
We all laugh with them
About the grief and pain
They carry everyday
We carry everyday
It helps
In a way
Making fun
Of the gun
Diminishes
The power and size
Of the bullet
For a time
Still
At the end of everyday
Whenever
You end up in your bed
The tiny holes
Left in you
Multiply
Bleed you dry
Make you feel less
Than what you were
One morning
In the light
What your being
Was bright
By Shanny Lopez
